Dear Journal,
I don't know why I can't sleep. I think it's either one of two reasons:

1. Bea is coming home early tommorow morning and I get to see her tommorow.
2. The cold I've picked up from somewhere over the weekend has gotten worse and I just can't sleep.

I'm hopeing that its number 1. Mind you it could be both.

I can't wait to see Bea tommorow. It's been to long since I've held her in my arms. I know it hasn't been a whole week but I still miss her so much. And I know she misses me just as much.

Anyway. Last night was Pool night. We were at Jupitor's Bar and Cafe. The place was a dump. The table sucked and the cue sticks sucked even more. I think I'm going to be buying my own pool cue sometime soon. Anyway, we won 13 games. So we won for the night. We have a bye next week, than Thanksgiving, and than we have a bye for the following week. So we're guarnteed first place for the next 3 weeks. I am probably going to go practice Monday night just to go and get out of the house and get some free pizza too for those nights. Erik seems to be really enjoying it as well. One of the guys on our team named Guy has become supplier errr umm "friend" so I think he's going to stick out this pool league. He was even getting weed off the people from the other team. And he keeps tempting me to smoke and it's really starting to fucking piss me off. Because one of these days its going to get bad enough that I'll break a promise to Bea and than she'll get mad at me and I'll be upset as well. For fuck sakes Erik. You know I made that promise, you know why I made that promise, so stop waving weed and ciggerrattes in my face all the time.

Anyway, enough about Monday night. On to tonight. Was at the Welland community band again. I wasn't feeling all that great today so I wasn't playing my best so luck would have the guy that I share music with didn't show so I had to hold my own part. Figures. I had a solo in it too. Didn't know I had it until we finished the song though because where the solo starts someone's written "1st plays" so I kept quiet. We only did the song once so maybe next week I'll play it.  At the end of the night when I was putting my instrument away the cork on the neck finally gave out. Been telling Mr. Gow to send it in for a new cork for the last 2 years now. Even Anthony Veterr was telling him that it needed a new cork when he had it. I can see why he never listened to me, but ignoing Anthony too? I mean his sister is a god to Mr. Gow because she's sung and played piano on broadway just like Mr. Gow did. But oh well. At least its getting fixed now and its going to fix a lot of other problems I've been having with that instrument as well.

We had our FIRST Robitics meeting with all the General Motors engineers today after school. We got to see last years robot and play around with it for a bit after a short presentation on how the Simcoe team did last year. I don't quite know what I want to on this team but I really want to do something. I might try out for being one of the controllers but I think I might stick to the website design or the 3D animation design teams. Free trip to Pitsburgh, Toronto, California and Atlanta. I can't really say no to that if I don't get the job I want.

Well I should be going to bed now. I have an English test tommorow. Well I guess you could call it a test. It's open book and I have good notes because she did a practice test with us today and I got perfect. I wish English class was this easy the first time I took it.

Dear Journal,
Wow three entries in three days. That's pretty good for me. I had a rather interesting night tonight. Rather interesting. And this is what happened.

It all started off today where my parents and I went out shopping. We went up to Blondes to look at some cars. There weren't many good ones there, she didn't really have much of anything there but she promised she'd have some new stock next week. We kind of told her what we were looking for and she said she'd have her eye out for something along those lines. She's been pretty good to us before so hopefully she will be again.

On our way back we went to Sears and bought a new Television. Finally replacing the one that died on us a few months ago. It's a 27inch Flat Screen Samsung. I kind of didn't like it in the store. Something was bugging me about when we were looking at it. There was also a JVC, Panisonic and Sears' Televisions that were also flat screen and the same size. However now that I think about it I think Samsung got some really bad reviews on a website I found one day. I'll have to look at that again later sometime. But if anyone knows anything about that Samsung please feel free to leave a comment about it. We also got a new VCR to replace the one that I broke a few months ago. We stopped for some lunch than we went to Costco for some grocery's and stuff and than we came home.

My parents were fighting quite a bit pretty much all day. Even when we got home and started setting up the new TV it was pretty bad. I was so glad that it was Saturday and that I was able to get the hell away from this house.

Once I got out of the hell whole I went and picked up Erik. First we tried to see if Jess was home. No answer on her cell and she wasn't at home either.

So than we tried Jesse. He was home but he was only going to be home for a bit. We came over for awhile and went up to what I guess would be called his gaming room. His brother was on the Nintendo or Playstation. Not sure what it was, didn't look, didn't care. He was playing some fighitng game I was kind of half paying attention too. Jesse was playing someother game on the computer and Erik was kind of switching back and forth between the two of them. Neither game interested me so I turned to the TV which had a Just For Laughs Comedy Show on. I sent a few text messages to and from Bea and than Jesse got out of his game and went on MSn and I took that from him because I wanted to talk to Mel for a bit.

So than we got kicked out of his house at around 8 than we we don't to Clifton Hill and drove down the hill once than we went up the parkway. We called Kirsty to see if she wanted to do something and she said come over. So we went to her house and on the way we stopped at Erik's new workplace and he picked up his schedule. Also saw Peter there and waved him. When we got to Kirsty's we went to her computer room for awhile and we were playing fighting with her and her sister for awhile and than we went to her room pretty much for the samy thing. Erik and I got some chocolate that Kirsty didn't want. It was pretty good chocolate and I got a bit greedy with it. When Kirsty's sister got sent to bed, Erik and I ganged up and started tickling her to death. She eventually gave up, and grinned and bared it. It was actually pretty funny. She than eventually kicked us too. Think that was around 9:30 or so. I didn't really look at the time.

So than we went to Clifton Hill again. We stopped next to this Mini Van and there was an old guy in the passanger seat with his window down smokinga  ciggeratte. Erik saw it and he was asking the guy if he could have one. He answered in what we thought was French. So Erik started talking to him in French and than he finally passed me a ciggeratte to give to Erik. Than the driver leaned forward and told me that his father only spoke Italian and listen in Italian. I guess Erik's French is bad enough to sound Italian. lol. This ciggeratte was pretty big too. "Bitch sticks" as they've been called.

We found some deserted parking lot and Erik got out and smoked it. I didn't want him smoking it in the car because I didn't know whether or not my dad would be getting in the car before he goes back to Lindsay next week or not. Normally I wouldn't care.

So than we did a couple more trips up and down Clifton Hill while Erik was screaming at some nice looking girls and I was honking the horn every once in awhile too.

We than went back to Erik's and we chatted about next summer for a bit on his porch and than I went home. My dad was fell asleep infront of the computer. I didn'te ven wake him up when I walked in. He was playing Zuma and I think he just got lucky and hit the pause button as he was falling on the keyboard. So I walked up and shut the monitor off so it didn't burn the image into the monitor and went upstairs. Bitch was asleep too so I just went into my room, got changed and went on the computer where I started talking to Kirsty, Erik again and some other friends.

So that pretty much takes you up too right now. I think I am going to finish this and either go play Counter Strike for a bit or go to bed. I am starting to feel really sleepy so I think I am going to go to bed. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,
Well I am in school now. I haven't really done anything yet. My classes our boring so far and I don't have a co-op placement yet. And are you happy Erik? I'm finally writing another entry.

Cmputer engineering has moved into another room on the first day because our normal room was getting rewired. Apparently they had electrical problems in the room before. All 40 computers were on 2 circuit breakers. Needless to say that they were constanly blowing the circuit breakers. The students in the Electicity class fixed up the room themselves because the school board wouldn't come and fix it. So they followed the CSA rules for Ontario and did a pretty good job. However, their are higher standards for the school board than there are for the CSA. So they did the work to fix everything themselves but than when the school board was doing an inspection they saw that the electricity students used the quad boxes that the school baord refuses to use. They used punch out boxes were are apparently very dangerous to teenagers because theres going to be a stupid kid that puts their fingers in the punch out box and get themselves electricuted. So the school board came in and fixed everything and they paid for. Anyway, now we are cleaning up the mess that the School Board made and now we are getting things reinstalled on the computers. But since our teacher is an idiot it is taking him forever to find the programs and it is taking a lot of time to get everything installed and whatever and than having to re ghost all the computers. It's a real pain in the ass and most of my time has been spent either playing fighting with Mel, Adam, or Khalid and playing solitare. Adam and Khalid are 2 guys in my class that I just sat next to on the first day we got on the computers and just kind of became friends with. Mel is Brennan's ex-girlfriend that I have known for awhile now but didn't recognize her until she was talking about her ex-boyfriend a couple days ago. All in all I don't like Mr. Beens. He seems kind of like a know it all idiot but I think its to soon to tell.

English class has been really boring. I have a few friends in that class some I have known for awhile. One being Jon's ex-girlfriend Janet and my old neighbour Joe. And a few new ones. Jason and Matt who I sit around and we always work together on in class work. And the teacher (for some reason) seems to like the 3 of us because we always get our work done in class. She told me that I belonged in the university English class. I almost didn't tell her that I failed that with a 13 but I did. But she still thinks I am excellent student. And no this is not a teacher that goes out to the smoke pit regularly.

Co-Op has been ok. I got my in class work down there pretty quickly. I got my resume, cover-letter, and references page all down within a couple days. My teacher tried to get me a placement with an animation studio in St. Catherines. He couldn't get me in there because they weren't taking any students. Than he tried to place me in Brock with the Faculty of Education. I will be working with computers but I'll be working with teachers on how to use programs. Not really what I want to do but sounds like my only choice. I've found a Gaming Studio in St. Catherines and I am getting Burley to contact them. Don't think that they really are or not because he keeps insisting that Brock is "THE" place to go and that is where I am going to learn the most. But it's not where I want to go. I want to get into the Silicon Knights gaming studio. Hopefully they will get in contact with them and I can go there. But in the meantime I go to Brock at 2pm to learn what to do. I even get to skip the interview if I stick with them.

Music ensembles have started this week. I am playing for the Myer Jazz band on Tuesdays after school and the Myer Senior Tour Band after school on Wednesdays. I am also playing for the Welland Community Band on Tuesday nights at 7:30. Bea is with me for all 3 so I get to spend some extra time with her. The Myer Jazz band was pretty bad. There was only me and one other saxophone player. He says that he's played for years. Could of fooled me. We have a couple trumpets, not so bad trombone player and a tuba player. What kind of Jazz band has a Tuba in it? But ok. Whatever. We also have 1 piano player, 1 percusionist and 1 piano/percusionist. The Myer Tour Band isn't so bad. We have an army of Trumpets which is rather unusual and we don't have as many Flutes as usual. A lot of clarinets and Clarinets and almost no saxophones. Yeah us.

I also joined the Stamford Jazz Band again. But I am going to have to quit this if I really do get on the robotics team for Westlane. Always kind of wanted to get my hands in on building a robot. I feel bad for committing to Jazz Band already and now having to quit because the robotics is on Thursday nights. But to make it up to him I told him that if really need me that he can get in contact with me through Westlane or Myer and I will get the music, learn it myself and go to whatever compition he wants to take us. So at least I won't be out of it completely. I think he can make due without me though. There was a lot of people that showed up that one Thursday I was there and I think he can get all the parts covered. But if he needs me I won't mind at all.

Well that about wraps up my school life. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,
My last entry was about how this school year has been. I wanted to write this in a new entry because it really has nothing to do with school. Thankfully...

Bea and I are still happy together. We haven't really been fighting lately but the stress from my stupid bitch of a mother has been getting to me. We've both been really upset lately but I know we can get through this. We always can. And hopefully soon I will be out of this hell hole of a house and I can get away from here and hopefully live with Bea somewhere away from her for awhile when I go to College next year. But I think it is still up for debate wheither or not she will actually move out with me or not. She seems to really like it where she is now, but who know's. I won't be upset with her if she chooses to stay.

She's in Quebec for a few days with a business trip with her father. I really miss her and she's only been gone for a day. She gets back Tuesday night. I wasn't doing to bad until I say Trishy and Kaylen and Little Jen and her boyfriend all kissing in the cafe. Than I really started to miss her. I can't wait until she gets back. Earlier she was saying how happy she was up there. Sounds like she was having a grand old time at the Mini Bar. But just a few minutes ago I got a text message on how much she hates it there and wants to come home. So now I feel bad because she wants to come home and I can't be there to cheer her up.

I got my last pay check for work a couple weeks ago. Another $500 bucks. I got a new pair of glasses too. I paid about $250 bucks for them. $200 bucks of that is getting covered through the benifits I am getting from work. Should be a nice $200 pay check coming to me soon.

Now to some rather depressing news. FLUFY is dieing. I've put a lot of miles on her and so has my dad. It's a really old car and it's starting to fall apart. The CV joint is what was going, and has been going for awhile. I took it to the Auto Shop teacher at Westlane to check out. He confirmed that it was the CV joints and I saw them for myself. He also looked at the rear knocking sound and I found out that frame is starting to rot out. He also said that the front motor mount is going. So one of these days the strut is going to go through the trunk or into the pavement, the front right axele is going to stop spinning or the motor is just going to fall out on to the road. Whatever comes first no one knows but my guess is that rear strut. I'll certainly feel the handling difference when that one goes. It might actually last the winter but I have my doubts.

We're starting to look for another car. My dad told Scott and Scott called some of his friends and I had a couple cars show up the next day that I might be interested in. One was a 94 Civic. It was white and looked in decent shape. It was a standard too. The steering felt kind of funny, couldn't quite put my finger on it and I didn't feel like looking at it closer. He had a few others but I weren't really interested in them because they were kind of old for what I wanted, really high in mileage and they weren't a standard. My dad and I have both agreed on a car that is in the 95 model range and for it to be a standard. I really want a standard. Scott also offered his 91 Corisca that he was going to give to Ian when he gets his driver's license. Its in pretty good shape it is kind of old for what we're looking for.

Dear Journal,
Well lets try right this entry a second time now. Tried writing it a couple days ago but because my bitch of a mother paniced when the mouse wasn't plugged in I had to come running over to see what the hell the problem was and than she asked me to do a few things while I was down there and by the time I got back up to finish my entry the god dam power went out. So now I am trying again now that she's asleep and I am not really talking to a lot of people on MSN to distract me that much.

Bitch has been causing me a lot of anger and stress lately that I don't need. I have Mr. Sauer for Grade 12 law now instead of Mr. Harris and shes all pissed off that I am getting a teacher that I don't really know much about. Shes still trying to push me into Westlane full time.  I try to tell her that it will look better on a transcript if I have graduated from a higher class school like Myer rather than a middle class school of Westlane. But she still insists that I take my social life more seriously than I take my school life. I still have yet to see what social life shes talking about. During the school year last year I was barely allowed out. And I was suppose to be home by 3:00pm on the days that I didn't have school. Sometimes if i was lucky I got until 3:30pm. But that was pretty rare. I try to tell her that but she doesn't listen to me. She never does. She doesn't give to shits about me other than to cause me pain and stress. She wants to see my life be just as miserable as hers. I can't wait until she's out of my hair and when I move out. I think I might actually move out sometime during this school year. I have the money now and my patience is wearing thinner and thinner everytime I talk to her or even when I look at the miserable bitch everyday.

It has also come to my attention that there was something wrong with the link to my webpage. I fixed it. I had a redirecting link for my webpage. Either the company that ran that redirecting link got hacked or ran out of business. I've fixed the problem by just putting up the normal link to the page. It should work now but if it doesn't I'll fix it some other time. I should work on the page some more. I got to stop being so lazy about that thing. But oh well. What can you do?

Anyway, Monday we finished the second pond so I pretty much got laid off from that job. My dad is in Lindsay now. About an hour north of Oshawa. So he's staying in a hotel up there and I am stuck alone with bitch until he gets back. Not only is it a lot harder to get out of this hell hole I also have to be home a lot sooner too. They said he would only be there for a month. Hopefully he'll be back sooner but you never know. They said 2 months in London only lasted a week and they said 4 weeks in Stoney Creek and that lasted 3 years.

Bea and I are seeing eachother a little more often now that I'm not working as much. She went to CNE this past Monday with some friends and family. I could of gone but I was working pretty much all morning and thats when we finally decided that we're just going to scrap the bottom level with the dozers and call it quits. Would have been nice to have gone because I've never been to the CNE before. I probably wouldn't have been allowed to go anyway because I had to go back to school shopping.

I went to register for school the other day. Surprise surprise they redesigned my time table over the summer for no reason what so ever. It's been fixed now but I was at that dam school for way more hours than I would have liked to have been. They also screwd up my busing schedule. They had me living at some place across town out by Westlane. Stupid idiots. I got Bea that morning and took her to register with me so I would have someone to talk to while I was waiting in line. Plus I wanted an excuse just to be with her. We were there a lot longer than we had planned and she was a few minutes late for work. She didn't get in shit for it though so I am happy about that.

I found out today my truck got sent to Guelph to get worked on. Donny called me at home and asked me why I didn't tell anyone about the oil thats been leaking. (Donny is the head mechanic, the one you'd think would know everything that other mechanics are doing) I told him thats been like that ever since I got the truck. Darwin puts about 4L of oil in it a week, and one of the mechanics have been down about 4 times now trying to fix the stupid thing, its also mentioned in my time cards and its also mentioned in all the service records. So he goes and looks for my time cards and service records and there it is. Bad oil leak on my service records and 4L of oil added every week on my time cards.

Next week I have an optiomitrist appointment. My dad's benifits cover $300 towards my glasses so I am probably going to be getting new frames and stuff. And I am going to get another pair of those clip on sun glasses too. I like those. I had a pair with these glasses but I think I took them off one day and left them on the roof my car and drove off with them like that. Sound familar with your wallet and bagel there Kirsty? hehehe. I haven't forgotten about that day. How could I ever forget that day. I was laughing to hard. Oh well.

We're thinking about getting a new TV so my parents have one in their bedroom again since it got taken away to be put in the kitchen, and the one in the kitchen replaced the one that died that was in the living room a few weeks ago now. We;re looking at a bunch of different TV's but everything we seem to like we go on the internet and find a lot of bad reviews about that particular TV and sometimes the brand name. So if anyone reading this can suggest a good 24" to 34" flat screen TV for a price I guess under $500 please tell me.

Last Sunday I took Jenny to see the Wings and Wheels show at the Niagara-On-The-Lake airport. There weren't as many cars as I had hoped for and it was a really bad day for flying because of the overcast. The Snowbirds were there in hopes to do a show but because of the crappy weather they couldn't do a show. We should of gone by the next day though because hearing in the news they did a low show. I think she liked going there just to get out of the house and I think she enjoyed it too. We did the Pepsi challenge too. Jenny likes coke better and I know which was which so I picked Pepsi. We both got the same prizes though. They still gave her a Pepsi card even after she insulted Pepsi by saying Coke tasted better. Oh well.

Well I don't really know what else to put in here so I am going to go for now bye all.

Dear Journal,
I know its late and I have to work tommorow but I have been sleeping most of the day so I'm not all that tired so I thought I would write another entry. I know I haven't been writing inawhile but with working such long hours and allergy season start up again. I just haven't been bothered to write lately.

It's allergy season for me lately. It started last Wednesday I guess. Ragweed is in the air again and I am back on the drugs. Although sometimes, like today, the drugs aren't doing very much for me. Theres a lot of ragweed at work its really making me feel like sometimes. Its even affecting my dad and he's almsot ammuned to the stuff.

Yesterday at work my father and I both broke are trucks. Almost at the same time too. My dad cut up a rad hose somehow on his truck and my box lever got jammed and I couldn't get my box back done. We have a spare truck and my dad took it when he broke his truck than when I broke mine I took it and he went home. Than we had a major rain storm which sent us home an hour and half early. The first thing that went was our ramp to get to the bottom of the pond. One of the newfys tried it and couldn't get up than Scott tried it and he couldn't get up and they both had 30 tonners. Than I tried it with my little 25 tonner and I couldn't make it up either. Than there is only 1 road to get to where we park the trucks. We are buidling a stock pile of dirt right over the road like the contractor wants. Right now its about 18 feet high and it still has to go up to 23 feet. The slope on that stock pile is about 75 degrees so we had some trouble getting over that hill when we were leaving in the rain. Both dozers and a digger had to help us up the hill. Which makes me kind of think that they should put caterpillar tread on our trucks instead of 6 tires. We'd probably go a lot better with caterpillars on them but oh well. We've also been going at the pond at a pretty good pace so we expect to finish in a couple days as long as we don't get anymore rain. I might get sent somewhere far away for a week or so before school starts. Jeff was telling my dad that there is a job starting in Acton when we get this golf course done. And no one seems to know anything about Fort Erie anymore.

Bea and I are still doing good. Nothing much has really happened between us. She's been upset lately that I have been sick and that she wants to come take care of me. I wish she was around to take care me. My dad has been taking care of me a bit but I am still getting fucked over in house work when all I do is want to go back to sleep and forget that I am sick. Some people say that shes wasting her life away being with me but neither one of us care about what that person says. We both know that we're all that we ever wanted in our lives and we're really happy together. One thing in our relationship that has been standing out is how we never really fight that often. We've had 2 or 3 major fights over the whole time we've been going out and I find that just amazing. It will be our 8 month anniversary tommorow and I am really happy that we hardly fight. With some of my past girlfriends it seems like we had a lot more fights than that and I wasn't seeming them for anywhere near that long. Anyway, I still go see her every Saturday night and if we get a rain day than I go see her so I got to go see her last night too. I know I worked a long day but I really wanted to go see her. Plus I didn't think I would be working today anyway like I didn't But bitch still made me come home at 10pm. Argh I can't wait until shes out my hair for the rest of my life.

Anyway. I don't think I really have anything else to say here. I'll probably go to bed now or go find some game to play on the computer for a bit. Bye.

Dear Journal,
Yeah it has been awhile since I have written in here so I thought I would do an entry. Bea went to bed earlier and no one is on MSN to talk to so I thought I would write.

I have been working a lot lately. But we have also been getting a lot of rain days. I don't know why I haven't written in here much lately. I guess I just haven't been bothered too. I've tried a couple times and than it crashed and I lost what I wrote. Probably just too pissed off at the computer to write.

Nothing muchhas happened in my life lately. Been getting up in the morning, going to work, coming home, doing the usual chores and going to bed. Working 12 and half hours a day really just puts me to sleep. It's such a boring job at times. But the money is good and I only have to put up with it for a few more straight weeks than I will be back at school and only working Saturday's. I will be taking my father's shifts on Saturday's throughout the winter time so I can still make some money during the school year.

Bea and I are still together. We haven't been spending as much time as we would like throughout the summer but I still go see her pretty much every Saturday night wheither or not I work and sometimes on evenings that we've had a rain day.  We haven't really done much. We might go to the movies this Saturday night, we might also go visit her grandparents or we might even go to Mikey's party if he still has it. Don't really know what we're going to do yet. Depends on how I feel Saturday night because I'll be working all day. We went Mini Putting a couple weeks ago. She had never gone Mini Putting before so it wasn't hard to beat her. The final score was 51 to 73. We might go again soon because I won a free pass and Mikey wants to go with his girlfriend. Bea really wants someone that she can beat because Mikey really sucks at Mini Putt.

Well I am going to bed now. Not really much to say because nothing much has really happened. Bye all.

Dear Journal,
Well I am start this entry again. Last night I tried writing a blog and it screwed up and crashed just before I was about to post it. Of course it screws up just to go along with all the other shit that was going on. I had Erik and Vanessa pissing me off I eventually just blocked them and still haven't unblocked them now.

Right now I am waiting for Steam to update yet again because my dad went in and tried to play Counter Strike and he fucked up everything. Whatever posessed him to even try this game is beyond me but whatever. So I am pre writing this entry in notepad while I go through the time of reinstalling Steam and Counter Strike over and over again until it finally works. Fuck how I hate it when he touches my computer. Not as bad when he touches my car though and I really hate it when he touches my car.

Anyway. Work has been alright. We had 6 days off in a row and got paid 4 hours for 5 of those days because one of those days was a Sunday. With the major rain storm we had last Tuesday night and than another storm for the next 6 days in a row making it to wet to work. Needless to say this next pay check isn't going to be as good as I would hope it would be. But it will probably still be decent. About $800 before deductions. nothing really special has happened at work since I last posted. We finished hole #8 a few days ago and Craig and I were bringing loads out to work on hole#7. The reason it's just Craig and I is because there is a good size reidge that we have to drive over and there is a 20 foot drop on either side. And the ridge isn't wide enough for the two 30 ton trucks to go over so thay are working on hole #6 which doesn't involve the longer drive. But Craig has chickened out so its only me doing it. They thought #7 was done which is why they dug out the pond. But recently the archectic wanted it done a little differently so I should only be working on that for another day or 2.

Last Saturday night I was at a wedding anniversary for some friends of the family. I helped set up and stuff like that and I helped hang up the quilt and pillows that my mom made as a wedding gift from their three daughters. Everyone loved the quilt and everyone was staring at the pictures for quite awhile thinking of all of the stories behind them. A lot of people told my mom to put it into some compitions and all that. My mom doesn't want to though. Apparently there are a lot of mistakes in there that a quilting judge would see. Everyone really likes it and she has done a really good jon on it no matter how many mistakes she thinks are in there.

Speaking of my mom. She got a new cell pone. Marci gave it to her because the place she works for provides them with cell phones and a couple months ago the switched carriers and they all had to buy new phones. So Marci gave my mom her old phone. So now we all have cell phones but we're all on different carriers. I am on Telus, my mom is on Bell and my dad has the shitty Rogers phone.

Well it's been a couple hours since I started this. I still can't get Steam working and I have pretty much just given up so I will just continue working on this until I get it finished and than I might try again when I am done this.

Last night I went out to see Bea. But before I got to see Bea I went out to see Emily a bit because Bea was still at work. I showed Emily the trucks I work with everyday and than we went to the Wendys/Timmys so she could get some dinner and I could get a coffee. We than went to pick up Bea from work. I gave her her birthday card and present than I dropped Bea off at home so she could have her shower, dropped Emily off and than went back to Bea's house. We finally got to spend some decent time together alone. We pretty much spent the night in her room because her parents were away and Jenny and Parker were downstairs. I don't think Jenny really liked the idea of the two of us alone in Bea's room but oh well. It's our relationship not hers.

Also kind of upset with Bea because this morning while she was rollerblading to work she lost the bracelet Igaveher last night. A nice silver bracelet that I spend a good amount of money on and she didn't even have it a whole day. Oh well nothing I can do about it now. But she is really upset about it because I know she really liked it.

I am still kind of depressed right now. Parents pissing me off. Computer being the fucking piece of shit that it is. And various other things that are just causing me to either get upset or pissed off. I can't think of anything else to write but I have the feeling that I am forgetting something. But than I always have the feeling that I am forgetting something. Oh well. Bye.

Dear Journal,
Yeah I got to a story to tell about my computer. Thats why I haven't posted here in a few days. My computer has been in the shop.

Well Tuesday night I got home from work and bitch had a bunch of shit piled up in front of my computer. She had a couple box fans and quilts it was all just piled up in front of my computer so no air could get into it at all. In doing this she pretty much destroyed both my harddrives, the power supply, and the motherboard. When I got out of the shower my dad had tried to check something on my computer and he noticed that she wedged one of the box fans against the computer to press and hold the power button down which probably did most of the damage.

So both my dad and I flipped on her for not thinking and she pretty much hasn't been talking to either one of us since. Oh well no big loss for me. Luckily we got Wednesday off because of rain and we took it in. She did $700 in damages to the computer and she wouldn't pay for it because it was all my fault somehow so my dad got even more pissed off at her because he had to pay for it. I also got a brand new DVD/CD writer out of the deal too. And mother board is a little quicker too.

Anyway I have had Wednesday, Thursday and now today off work because of the major rain we've been having. MY truck was up the rim in water yesterday morning. They needed to do a service on it last night and Darwin was saying that he had to come and get the loader to pull it out so they could work on it in a slightly dryer location. We walked down to the hole we're working on and the water is pretty deep because the whole buttom of the whole is clay so all the water is just sitting there. Looks like we're going to get a bit of sun today but the storm thats been hitting us and going in a circle over the last couple days might hit us again tonight and dump another 20mm of rain on us again tonight. So much for the drying out today. Might get a 4 days off with 3 hours pay each day so I'm not complaining. At least I am getting paid a bit.

I got a pretty good pay check today. They took off about 100 dollars for safety equipment and all that crap plus I took a day off last week and my pay check was still over a $1,000. This next pay check won't be as good though with 3 days off pretty much. Maybe 4 if we get tommorow off though. We'll probably work next Saturday so it might make up a bit for the time lost.

Bea and I kind of a pretty big fight this week but it's over and done with now. I got to see her Wednesday night after work and we both went to Jessica's Birthday party. It wasn't a bad party. Kind of boring at the beginning because everyone showed up late. And the pillow fights were pretty good too. I don't like her house though. Well her basement anyway. If I stood up straight I would have probably put my head threw the ceilling and my neck would be flush with the floor in the rooms above us. It was kind of funny though. Jessica's mom felt sorry for me. I also got to see Bea last night. We were suppose to go to the pool hall just me and Bea but Bea, Jenny and Parker got to caught up in "Kirby" and we didn't end up leaving until much later than I had planned and Parker and Jenny came too. We only ended up playing 2 games. Oh well. At least I got to spend sometime with her.

Anyway I think this it for now. Bye all.

Dear Journal,
Well lately I have been ok. Nothing much has really happened. Today I had the day off because they were fixing my truck and both of the 30's had to have services so the mechanic was pretty much working on our trucks the entire day.

I broke my truck towards the end of the day yesterday. I had a differential box failure. The box failed to keep the parts and oil inside of the differential. Just going along and my oil gauge just drops down to nothing in the matter of a couple minutes and Scott gets on the radio and says your bitch is taking a leak. I than get out and theres a black trail about half a mile long behind me. So that ended my day slightly early. It took them quite awhile today to fix it. And in theory as long as I work all day Thursday, Friday and Saturday I will get paid 2 hours for today because of the maximum 60 hours a week stuff.

Since I had the day off I took care of the thing I wanted to at the bank. I now have a second account that I am going to put about half of each pay check in there and let it collect interest and not touch it unless I really need money. I'll probably end up putting about 3 quarters in it because I am working such long hours I don't really have time to go out and spend it. I was also cleaning my room for awhile and got a lot of my desk cleared off. Also went and got Coffee with Erik and was chatting with him for an hour.

Saturday night was really nice. Bea and I went to the fireworks. I was going to park the car where my dad used too when we went to the fireworks years ago. We park it up infront of the Mariott hotel and walk down the stairs there and go stand out by Table Rock to watch them. Well when I got there I found out the stairs had been taken out. So Bea and I walked down to the casino and we leaned up against the fence and watched them from there. It was so sweet just standing there with her in my arms just watching the fireworks. I am going to be going to see her next Saturday night. I have to work this Saturday though so it might work out that I can just go pick her up on the way to her house if shes working late. But you never know though. I dunno if we will go to the fireworks because I'll probably be pretty tired and so will she.

I went to the mall Saturday in hopes to get a new pair of sandels. Well I couldn't find a pair that I liked and actually fit so I ended up in getting Bea's birthday present. I than went to Walmart and got my sandels there. They had some nicer ones that came in the size I needed and were a lot cheaper. I hope she likes what I got her. I'm pretty sure she will though.

Also found out recently that Bea's parents are going to take her to Canada's Wonderland for her birthday. They wanted to go on the Saturday or Sunday. I got lucky there because I don't have to work that Saturday because its a pay week. Jenny and Parker are going to be coming too.

Well thats about it for now. Bye for now.