Dear Journal,
Yeah I know I should be in bed right now but I have already gone to bed and tried to fall asleep, but I couldn't. Kind of in a pissy mood today. A lot of shit has been happening today. Where should I begin?

I got up and listened to my mom bitch at me for awhile because I got home so late Saturday night. Well dad and I knew I was only about 5 minutes late and she came home even later than I did, and how she knew I came home late is beyond me. But oh well. Just went in one ear and out the other.

We took both cars to my Grandparents house today. It was my grandmother's birthday party. I have no idea how old she is now. Mid 70's I think. We had lunch there. There was very little cooking involved. It was one of those "make your own subs-sandwich" kind of things and mostly everything was store bought cold cuts or cheese. And what she did cook herself I managed to stay away from so I'm not to bad. But I still had to listen to my aunt's "computer knowledge" (She'd fit right in with the moron that couldn't open the door to get to her CD drive) and her general stupidity and bitchyness. And than there was my other aunt who just goes on and on and on and on. She'd out do the energizer battery if she had the chance.

Another thing I found out a little more in detail is that my Aunt Shirley died. She had a nice farm up north with her husband Uncle Bubs. Uncle Bubs is my father's father's oldest brother. I used to go out and play on when I was a kid. She was nice back than but if I probably wouldn't recognize her now.  Another one of the better family members have died...

Went to pool practice. Since I had my own car this time I wasn't really late. Other than having to scrap off the ice on the car again that I didn't think I needed to do. But Bea came along because I thought Jason and Erik were going to be there and it would have been nice to have 4 people there instead of 3. I picked up Jason and than it turns out Erik was up north with family. So it turned out to be 3 people anyway. But it was nice to have Bea along. We went to Wendy's for dinner. Than Bea's mom came to pick her up and Bea gave Jason a nice big hug and clenched on to him as long as he could. Jason just loved that one. lol. (He hates girls that are very clingy)

Got home again to get bitched at. That was because they were having a fight. My mom was convinced I had had an accident and was probably dreaming up the party after my funeral. I guess it was rather unfortunate to her that I came home. I took out the garbage and than I set up the block heater for when I want to go out later (for school).

On the way home my parents went out and bought some White Hot Chocolate. I tried some a Bea's on Thursday night and I really liked it so I got them to buy some and as I was drinking it downstairs Bea sends me a text message asking me if I could come online. i tell her in about 15 minutes I will. After I finish my White Hot Chocolate I go back outside again because I set up the timer wrong. Than I came back in and went online. First thing I get out of Veronica is her bitching at me about how I am so "abusive" with Charley, when I'm never at Myer much this semester. She flips out on me like I was doing all the damage, when he said himself that it was other people. Since I was in a bad mood about today's events I pretty much flipped on her, blocked her than I flipped on Bea because I figured she wanted Veronica to bitch at me and than I left to go play Counter Strike for a bit and turned my phone off because I knew Bea would be sending me text messages. Which now I see she did. I realized later that Bea just wanted to talk and that veronica did what she did on her own. I'm still rather pissed off at Veronica for brightening my day so much. She keeps telling me sorry and I say to forget it because I just didn't want to talk about. She agrees to forget it than she just starts the argument all over again...

Well I think I've had enough bullshit for today and I am going to go and try and sleep again. Hopefully I can get some sleep so I don't feel so tired in class tomorrow. But I think it's a little late for that now.

Dear Journal,
Well another early in the morning entry for me. I think its been a couple days since I've written so now that I am off Counter Strike I decided that it might be time for me to write another entry. So here it is.

Friday was rather unusual for parts of it. The morning was the usual sleep through Engineering and English but Co-Op was rather different. We had an in class co-op session this week. Basically it was to present our major projects. Yes, the one I was doing late Thursday night, early Friday morning. I did such a half-assed job on my presentation because I knew it wasn't worth a whole lot, I had a high enough mark as it was, and the fact that if we didn't do that project he wouldn't give us our credits. So I pretty much set out on it as "I'm only doing it because I have too." Turns out that he thought it was the best project he's seen in years and actually gave me a pretty high mark on it. He even wanted to keep a copy of it so he could show it in future co-op classes. I was rather surprised myself.

Today was nice and peaceful. Bitch had a sewing class from 10-4 today and than she went to the bar or something afterward. I was suppose to be grounded from going out tonight for absolutely no reason what so ever. I think bitch just wanted to live up to her name. So I asked my dad if I could go out and he said yes since bitch wasn't around to stop me. So I got out to see Bea afterall. I lied to her though, told her I was going to go play Counter Strike. But I only lied to her because I wanted to surprise. Mind you I probably shouldn't of tried to surprise considering what happened last time... Erik and I biked to her house and she had taken off to Tim Horten's with Jenny and I called her asked her where she was she told me Thorold and Montrose when she was really at 5 corners. I get to 5 corners and than she's gone to Denice's. It was a mess that night but I eventually did get to spend a few minutes with her once I did catch up to her. That was back in October when I wrecked the oldsmobile. I probably mentioned that story in previous posts though. Oh well.

Tomorrow is going to be rather busy. i have to go to my grandparent's for my grandmother's birthday party. Yay. What fun. I am going to be there from 12:00 until about 2:30, hopefully I'm out even sooner than that. We're going to be taking both cars since I flipped out on my parents for the last time we did this and I missed Bea's dance recital. I'm still so mad at my parents for that one. But oh well. Better luck this year.

I added some stuff to my webpage today. Having the peace and quiet to work on some stuff that I wanted too I did some updates on it. I fixed the button issue that I had that Bea was making fun of me for awhile now and I also added what I have of my music database on there. So far I have barely put a dent of what I have on there but one of these days I'll get it done. I've also noticed that the music doesn't work for all people. On some computers the whole playlist plays through and restarts like it's suppose to. Some only loop the first song and some it doesn't work at all. If someone could shed some light on these do tell. Thanks.

I've also done some editing on the profile section. Since I have noticed that Will hasn't written in his blog in quite sometime now I decided to remove him from the list and replace it with Ver's new blog. Sh'e's got a nice blog so far so make sure you take a look at it.

Well i don't really have much else to say so I think i am just going to end this with a little hint to everyone. My tagboard doesn't count as entry comments. Bye all.

Dear Journal,
I'm not procrastinating, really I'm not. Uhhh I am thinking of ideas for my project. Yes thats it. And While I think up ideas I'll write a blog. Sure sounds good to me.

Well today felt like it was extremely long. You know. One of those days that just seem to drag on forever. I didn't sleep well last night. One of those nights i was just tossing and turning and I couldn't fall asleep no matter what I did. I mostly just layed there in bed for a few hours playing games on my cell phone. I went on Counter Strike for awhile until I felt like I was falling asleep than I tried and I couldn't. I finally got to sleep around 4:00am and than when bitch woke me up about 5:00am when she got up and had a shower. So yeah I was pretty tired today.

So not only was I really tired my mother decided to piss me off first thing in the morning in anyway she could. I pretty much just ignored her most of the morning.

Went and picked up Mike like usual and went to the cafe and my friend Rachel was in there working on a Law project. I sat with her and worked on some of my own work and chatted with her a bit here and there between questions. Went to class and got really frustrated with the uP ASM Simulator work that we are doing in Engineering class. I send Mel a few nasty e-mails on how frustrated I am with that and than Mel got sick of me and I sent one to Bea. I hate that thing so much. The help files are useless. The tutorials that are on there don't even work at all. Argh its just a lot of anger and frustration. And our teacher is just absolutely useless because he has his face glued to porn he probably has open on his computer all the time.

English was normally. Amanda was annoying me in English class. She forgot all her books at home so she was just sitting around doing bugging me and Janet. She eventually asked to go work in the library on the computers for a project of some sort. Janet and I bugged the teacher to say yes until she finally did. And since Jason wasn't in class I actually got some work done. But by the time Amanda left and I had some peace and quiet, most of the period had been wasted.

At Brock today Tyler was in. So I pretty much did nothing. Tyler is great to talk to, especially when its a really slow day, like today was.

Tour band was normal. We got a letter from Mr. Gow about our trip. It will be from April 29th to May 2nd or something like that. Gave a brief summary of what we are going to be doing, when we're going and what the payment installments are going to be.

Drove Bea home and than I came home myself. Listened to my parents fight for awhile and went up to my room. Dad made dinner. And than I did the dishes and came on here to start writing a blog. But now i most really start my final project so I am going to end this here. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,
Like I promised I am writing some more like I said I would. I am at co-op right now with nothing much to do other than paperwork. Not really in to much of a rush to get that done but it has to get done by the time I leave here. Oh well, this can be a relatively quick entry.

Last night I was talking to Veronica for a good time. I was helping her create a blog on her and I am helping her set up a template and a mouse trail. So far I don't really have the mouse trail working but I think I know what the problem is and I just haven't had the chance to go in and fine tune and figure out what I did wrong. The problem could also be with the template she picked out. I know some templates on here don't really get along with mouse trails. I think I had that problem when I was trying to create one for my account. Oh well, Jesse might have to look at it.

I really don't want to be here. Everytime I am hear it reminds me of how many stupid people there really are in the world. Either that or they have just all concentrated in this one central location.

This morning I got out of English class to "help Jason with catching up" in his novel. He pretty much just copied off me and I helped him if had any questions which I didn't really mind. He wasn't feeling well and he got me out of the classroom filled with stupid people. Some people just drive me nuts in that class, it was good to have a break from them 2 days in a row because English was cancelled yesterday.

I got another shitty parking spot again. Long walk in. Mind you I need the excersise but I hate parking way out in the back. Two days in a row now  that I have had to park out there. Usually I get lucky and at least find something in the first lot but not over the last 2 days. It's been the back of the third lot. Oh well better luck tomorrow. And the fact that I won't be here for very much longer anyway. I have this Friday off because of an inclass. And my last day is next Friday. Oh I can't wait. Than I have next semester and a bunch of new courses that I should find interesting. Well I know Auto and Math should be ok but Law is kind of ify because I have Sauer and I haven't really heard much good about him. Oh well I can always drop if need be. I can afford too, it's not like I need it for anything. I am just taking it because it was an easy course in Grade 11 and its a time killer to make me a full time student for next semester.

Well I probably should get doing the paper work done so I am going wrap things up here and get started on that. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,
Yeah I guess it has been awhile since I have written in here. I haven't realized that it has been so long. But I guess it is time to write some now. I need some cooling off anyway. It has been to much of a good time for me lately. Shitty days here and there and the goods seem to be few and far between.

Well what should I start with. The new car maybe? Well it's ok I guess. It's been a lot of grief and still is being a lot of grief. The Hydraulic clutch is a real pain in the ass before the car is fully warmed up. And there are some serious electrical problems with it that involve the power locks and rear defrosters not to work at the same time. A few days before Christmas break I had some stupid moron kid hit the side of car while I was in class and did a good amount of body damage. I will get that repaired sometimes early next semester when I can afford not to have the car. With my co-op still going on I can't really survive without it.

Bea and I are still happy together. It's been over a year now and still going strong surprisingly enough. We spent New Years together. Well really it felt like it was her, me and Parker because he was so fucking impatient. Oh I was mad at that one. But still we had a good time. I took her out for dinner this past Sunday because my Pool league practice was cancelled because of a tournament. We were going to go to the Mandarin but that place was packed so we went to the Jade Garden and I am sure she enjoyed it. I did too and it wasn't a bad price either. Thats the rest of her Christmas present. I don't know if she agrees with that or not because I know she wanted roses but I'll save those until her birthday when they are a little more "in season."

Speaking of Pool league, I am on a Color Of Money team again. We got our little of group of Jason, Mike, Erik and I kicked out of the team for Jupitor's because I didn't want to be thrown around from league to league just so the fucking bar owner could keep his bar full. I told him we were staying on B and he told us to go play for another bar. So we did, and we have already had the pleasure of kicking their ass once and we will get the pleasure again on March 7th.

All this time and I can't really think of all that much to write.

Christmas kind of sucked as usual. My present from my parents is going to be the new Tenor Saxaphone I am getting but its kind of late because its on back order. I don't know when it's finally going to arrive but when it does I don't even know if I will like it. I looked at a similar one that my friend Chris plays. A low end student model. I need at least an intermediate 323 because I need the 3rd octave key for the Welland Band I play for. And the lower student models don't have that octave key.

Well a friend wants some help at creating a new blog so I am just going to finish this one here. I've probably missed so much that has happened to me lately but hopefully I will get  back to writing a little more often than I did. So bye for now.

Dear Journal,
Christmas time has rolled its ugly head in again for another year and its already miserable for me. I just want Christmas to go away and leave me alone. Everyone's in the Holiday spirit. I just want to be in the same spirit I'm in the rest of the year. NONE AT ALL!.

I have had Bea pushing me to go to her Aunt's dinner. I mean fuck I feel bad enough already for really not wanting to go to it but she keeps bugging me and bugging me to go to it. I'm not doing it. I don't want anything to do with Christmas. Most of Bea's family has been trying to get me in the Christmas spirit. I know Jenny tried last year but it didn't work so she's not really trying to hard this year thankfully.

Why can't you people understand that I want nothing to do with this holiday. Not matter how much you all try to get me in the Christmas spirit. It's going to be same fucking bullshit I go through year after year after year at home. It's already been constant fighting with my parents over Christmas. Always more battles this time of the year. More than what goes on for the rest of the year? Isn't this suppose to be a holiday of happyness and family rejoicing? Not in this family.

Yes it will be my 1 year anniversary with Bea on Christmas. Amazingly enough we've lasted this long. But I'm not going to get to see her at all, probably not even going to get the chance to talk to her either. She's got her family, I've got mine. As much as I hate this way it's how it is and the 2 families aren't going to be crossing paths in the near future.

Don't get me wrong. I'd love to spend Christmas with her because I know how much this holiday means to her. But thats it. I don't need to be dragged into all the other family events that are around Christmas or near Christmas. I'm not part of any other family than my onw. I hate that too but facts are facts.

So the bottom line here is that if I don't want to do Christmas, leave me alone and let me not do it in my own happy little ways. Unfortanetly I am part of this family and this family alone and no one else's so please leave me alone with Christmas dinners, the walks, the gatherings and all that other bullshit. It's just something I'm not doing.

Anyway now that I have all that let out I guess it's time I can do a little blurb about whats been going on lately. I haven't really written in here in awhile but nothing really significant has happened or else I would of wrote it by now.

The most recent thing I guess would be me taking Erik's work shifts at the Far East Restaurant he works in. By the sounds of it I might be there for longer than just covering Erik's ass while goes and works at his other restaurant. Seems like they need someone tall to reach all the top shelves. Oh well it's easy work and I could always use the money. I started at 6pm this Thursday. Dishes and mopping andthat was pretty my night. I was going to go to Bea's house for dinner but since it was Parent / Teacher Interview's they didn't really have supper ready at a decent time so I went to Burger King for dinner. And of course the only person on front cash is the dumb broad in training so I was a few minutes late for work. Don't think Leannor minded though. At least she never said anything about it. I go back at Sunday at 6pm again.

Well I was playing for a Jupitor's in the Pool League I am in and me and my friends got kicked off that team because the owner of the bar is complete moron. Oh well. No big loss really because now we're playing for Color Of Money again where we actually stand a chance in a few games. I went to a practice session this past Sunday. Nello spent most of is afternoon with Mike and I. Erik and Jason couldn't of been there. Erik had to work and Jason was with his mom for a surgery. Jason will be there this Sunday so hopefully he can get a good practice in.

Well I was going to go play Counter Strike for a bit but than a few people started to talk to me when I came on MSN when I got home about an hour ago. so I decided to stay on and chat for a bit. But than no longer did I decide that is when everyone decided to leave. So I thought it was high time to write another entry. but I am done this entry nof now. Bye.

Dear Journal,
Bea and I have come to a final result in the conflict that we've had in our relationship. I talked to her on the phone for awhile on Tuesday night. We were both in tears pretty much. Than we kind of got off topic and actually had a decent conversation for awhile until she had to go. I realized how much she makes me happy all the time and that I could forgive her this time. But she knows if she breaks a promise to me again it's going to be over between us. This time I hesitated because she was at the cottage all the time I was really thinking about it. But if it happens again its going to be an instant break up. So she better not do this again.

Monday night was Pool League night again. We basically got kicked off the Color Of Money A team to go play for the Jupitar Bar B team. They had to many players on the A team so the president of the Pool League suggested that we go play for another bar which will be a B team. The advantage to playing at this new car. They don't ID you so you can buy whatever drink you want. Yeah I got a bit buzzed. And the owner of the bar even gave us a free drink. I bet thinks we're 19. Erik and I didn't tell him otherwise. However the disadvantage to playing for this team was that I was hoping to learn something out of playing on the league which is what was happening at the Color Of Money. I was learning quite a bit there and learning some tips and tricks there. At Jupitors no one seems to know anything about the rules or the game. Their just there for the free beer and free food which isn't really what I joined this Pool League for.

I haven't gotten the Beretta yet. It failled the safety that it went in for on Saturday. It is getting a new exhaust system right from engine block to tip. It also needed a new steering module. Not exactly sure what he was talking about there because it had rack and pinion steering like most cars do. But we were getting the information second hand from the salesman who talked to his kid about it who was the actual mechanic working on it.

Bitch has been really pissing me off lately. Especially today. She was late coming to get me today to drive me to Co-Op. An hour late to be exact. So I figured, we'll this my last day she's going to get my fired because this isn't the first time. Thankfully Herman understands my situation and isn't going to fire me yet. Rahul on the other hand is getting pretty ticked off with me. Luckly he only knows about a couple of incidents. And than driving me back to Westlane today she decided she was going to take a different route. Which would involve going over the Allenburg bridge. BIG MISTAKE. because of course we were in a rush to get to Westlane and Murphy's law dictates that when you are in a rush everything is going to go wrong. Which it did. We were about the 5th car in line from the bridge when the alarm goes off and the bridge starts going up. Now of course ever since the accident there they started putting the bridge up about 20 minutes before the frieghter is even anywhere near the bridge. So since that put us about 40 minutes late I was late for the Robotics Meeting. And guess what I missed, team leader selections! So now it was me and this Andre kid that were running for the Team Leader for the website design committee. Why him I don't know! But he fully admitted that he doesn't even know how to turn a computer on let alone design a website. And when I got there he told me he wasn't giving up the position now that I was there. So since he also admitted that he's a moron to the GM programmer that is kind of incharge of our little bit he's insisting we use his template he uses for another site and assume's were all morons. Great so I figured well isn't this just peachy. No creativity what so ever. So we were working on it for a bit and than Mr. Beens introduced me to the communications technology teacher and she was all nice and talking to me until Mr. Beens announced that I was Myer Magnet student. She fucking got the hell away from me as fast as possible and avoided me like I was the plague for the rest of the night. So I'm figuring great. The GM people think we're idiots and the teacher is another Anti Magnet Program maybe even worse that Mr. Gow is.

Well thats been my recent few days. I guess I should probably be going to bed soon since Emily told me that I should of gone to bed about an hour ago since I've been tired lately. Been tired lately because I've been on the Counter Strike game all hours of the night trying to get my mind of things with Bea and Bitch. Well that is all for now bye.

Dear Journal,
Yes I am confused again. Surprise surprise. But this is something that is really important this time. I really just don't know what to do. If I stay with Bea how can I trust her? How can I look her in the eye, say that I love her and mean it anymore when she's lost my trust.

But I love her so much. All the good times that we've had together will just be forgotten memories if we do break up. I've always loved ever minute I've ever spent with her. She's always put a smile on my face and sometimes tears to my eyes when I've had to leave her.

It's like I can't live with her because I can't trust her anymore and I can't live without her because I love her so much.

We've been through so much together. It will be our 10 month anniversary this upcoming Monday if we last that long. I just don't know what to do about it. I don't know what to say to her or nothing. She's sending me text messages on my cell phone begging for me to talk to her but I can't. I don't know what to say anymore. And I don't want to hurt her anymore than she already is.

I just wish I knew what to do. And I feel so bad for doing this to her. She must be feeling so bad lately and I can't even talk to her about it. I'm really sorry Bea but no matter what happens I'll always love you.

Dear Journal,
Well I am bored right now so I decided to write another blog entry again.

I got $1,800 from the insurance company that is going towards my new car. We have been looking around for a new car and we have decided on a 1995 Chevrolet Baretta. We are getting it for $3,000 even and thats including taxes, safety and emmisions test. It has a lot of km on it but it looks in really good shape. I got a copy of the work order when they got it at the dealer and there were a lot of normal wear parts that were replaced in Decemeber. It's been sitting pretty much ever since. It's a standard and it seems like no one now a days wants a standard. You'd think they would because as much power as possible is what seems to be in fashion these days. Its got power locks and nice looking system in it. Its been under coated so I might get some underglow neons for it. My parents say that since I haven't actually drive a standard much on city streets that once we do get it they are not going to let me actually drive it right away because I've only driven a standard on the track. Is there really a difference though with the way I drive? Oh well it's just them making my life that much miserable. It's what makes them happy. The salesmen was going to send the car in today for all its tests and if it passes everything I should have the car in my hands sometime next week.

Last few days I have been really mad at Bea. She's broken a promise to me and I really don't know what do now. I made her promise me that she would do good in her classes this year. She isn't. She's failling classes. And its really bugging me that shes doing this bad. It makes me loose a lot of trust in her and it also makes me wonder what other promises shes been breaking on me that I don't know about. I'm sure there isn't but you never really know. I know shes trying in school now but why wasn't she trying in the first place?

This weekend her parents were suppose to go up to the cottage alone. But since her parents were so mad at her for failling her courses her parenst made her go to the cottage with them. Jenny is on the same boat but shes not failling as much and don't think as badly either. Since the girls were suppose to stay home this weekend. I made plans to borrow Erik's bike to ride over to her house again like I did this week. Although this time it wasn't going to be a surprise so she would have been expecting me. But that plan had to get thrown out because shes at the cottage this weekend.

So thats enough about that. Bitch has been driving me around most of the time. It's a good thing I had an in class co-op because bitch went out shopping for the day with one of her quilting friends so she wouldn't be able to drive me anywhere. There was a funeral on Friday for the two Westlane students that were killed in a car accident. My engineering class was pretty much empty because everyone was getting ready for the funeral so Mr. Beens let us go and I knew my English class was going to be cancelled because our teacher wanted to go to the funeral as well. So I ended getting really bored and walked to Myer instead of waiting for the bus. Got there before lunch and saw Curtis in the cafe and was talking to him pretty much until 2nd period was over.

I have a few assignments for Co-Op to do. I'll get around to them sometime. They don't look all that hard but I didn't get around to starting them today so I might start them tommorow. One I might even get done tommorow. Not due for quite awhile so I'll get around to it sometime. Might even bring it to Co-Op and get it done there. lol.

I'm still thinking of moving out. A few of Mel's friends have been talking and I asked if they had room for me and they said yeah. So I am going to see how that goes. Hopefully this goes through. I need out of this hell hole. WIth the stress that Bea and Jenny have been getting from their parents they also want to move out with me. I dunno if thats going to work though because by the sounds of it Andy only had room for 1. But we could also look for something bigger and than they can come too. The more the merrier.

Well I think I should go have a shower and probably by than supper will be ready. Dad offered to make supper today. Kind of happy for that. To lazy to good today. I think it's just going to be a left overs day though. Oh well. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,
Last week I fried another harddrive. My mother was complaining that she had a nap last Wednesday afternoon and that she couldn't sleep through my harddrive making so much noise so she shut it off. I got home and had to make my own dinner because she went out. Erik also rollerbladed down and I had dinner with him and a beer. I went up to my computer and turned it on and realized what the problem was and took out that harddrive and took it to Niagara Electronics. Erik also tagged along and I dropped him off at his house on the way home. The next day Niagara Electronics calls my mom and says that they don't have any 40 gigs in stock and the offered her an 80 gig for $25. My mom than called me and I pretty much told her to run not walk. However while I was setting up the new 8- and reinstalling everything I fried that new one too. So I got that one replaced and that seems to have lasted so far. Still working on installing stuff though. Theres still time for me to fry this one too.

This past Monday I got into a car accident. I was heading over to Bea's house from Brock because I got out of my co-op early. Stupid university blond wasn't paying attention to the road and she ran into the back of me as I was stopping for a red light. She did a lot of damage to the rear end of the car and she ripped the front bumper off hers. She was obviously a student. She had a Brock University student sticker on her back window and she's only 2 years older than me. When I got out of the car she still had the lipstick line up her check because she had the lipstick in one hand mirror in the other. She fully admitted fault to me and the cop but I knew I was still moving when she hit me because I was still in the process of stopping for the red light. I told the cop that and he wrote her a ticket for Following To Close. She got really pissed off about that and started to argue with the cop. He just stood there and smiled as he wrote her up for various other things. She must have still had a license though because the next day I saw the same vehicle in the same lane and same intersection but this time she hit a transport truck. I doubt she's driving legally anymore. On Friday I took it to Dominion Auto so they could get an estimate on it. They looked at the damage and all they pretty much said the insurance company is probably going to declare it as a write off. My poor car. My FLUFY is dead. My first car. But my parents we're talking about it and I am 1 up on them. They were at fault when they had to write off their first cars. I wasn't at fault so I don't feel that bad. But still. I am going to miss that little car. Had a lot of good experiences in it. And some I don't even want to remember. We're looking for a new car. We're thinking we're going to get about $2,000 to $3,000 from the insurance company for the write off. My parents said they would but in $1,000 and I am going to put in $1,000. So we're probably going to be able to get a decent car. I am looking for something small. Hopefully a standard and anything but a Ford or a Saturn. I've also heard that Honda Civic's are pretty bad on car insurance so maybe stay away from one of those too.

Well this week has been pretty busy. I have been trying to get some stuff reinstalled on my computer and I still have Pool on Monday nights, the Welland Community Band on Tuesday nights and this past Wednesday night there was a school dance. It was actually pretty good. I liked the music because they were playing a lot of rap music. But I bet Rob hated most of the music though. lol. Had a few slow dances with Bea. It was great. Nice to revisit the thing that made us start liking each other before we started going out.

Friday was suppose to be a PD day. I had co-op though and I went from 9am to 4pm to make up the extra hours I've lost because I had such difficulty getting into the co-op I am in now. By the way. I am doing my co-op at Brock University. I am helping in the Faculty of Education. Pretty much just fixing computers. I am working with the Computer Adminstration staff. Lately its been boring because I am doing stuff that I have mostly done before. But soon I will learning more because the guy I am working with is intending on leaving for the month of December for vacation. So I am going to be taking over his position as the computer adminstrator for the Faculty of Education. I have my own e-mail address from Brock and I got my own access card too for everything on campus. Lucky me.

Well last night was rather interesting. I went to Erik's because thats pretty much as far as my parents were willing to drive me. I was hoping that Bea's mom would drive her over to Erik's. But since her parents hate Erik so much they wouldn't drive her over there. So I was really pissed off about that because all those times I have driven both Bea and Jenny around for their parents and the the time that I need them to drive her somewhere she won't do it. Well after sitting around at Erik's for awhile Erik suggested that I use his bike and he can use his blades and we'd go see Bea ourselves. Stupid me doesn't call her to see if shes home because I wanted to surprise her. So when we get there she wasn't around. Her mom said that her and Jenny went to Timmys and I should call Bea's phone. Well I call her to see what Timmys she went too. I ask her if she was at the Thorold Stone and Montrose Timmys or the 5 Corners Timmys. She said that Thorold and Montrose so we went there and she wasn't there. So here I am pissed off and I call her again and than she tells me she was 5 Corners. Timmys so than I am even more pissed off and than tell her that and to forget I'll see you Tuesday. So now I am even more pissed off because I just biked across town for no reason what so ever. I realized that I had more time than I thought I did and than we headed to the other Timmys. And of course when we get there she's not there either. So I call her again and she ignores her cell phone. So I call her house and than have her mom call her cell phone and than she finally called me but I let Erik answer it this time. So he's pretending to be me. Not very hard though. If she was paying attention she would of realized it was Erik but I don't think she was. It was pretty funny. Anyway, than I found out she went to Denice's for awhile. So than Erik and I headed up to her house and she headed towards us to meet us half way. So I got to spend I guess it was 10 minutes with her before we had to head back. Really kind of pissed off about that still. Would have liked to have had some decent time with her because I know she was really upset when I called her from Erik's that she couldn't come see me. And I know she's been having some problems at home lately.

Transportation to all my schools is going to be difficult. Bitch will is quite often late so I am going to be late everywhere I go. And since she is going to have to be driving me around everywhere I am going to have to be spending that much more time with her. Argh I am really going to hate that. I can't wait until I get a new car.

Well I got to go now bye for now.